Making My Blue Heart Red Again [Poem by Enyonam Apaloo]

When we first met, I didn't think it possible

My heart, so cold was frozen by the past hurt

It was kept under lock and key

But with all the strength I had

I couldn't fight the feeling deep within

I tried not to think of you

To tell myself that what I felt was a mistake

That I was fine being all by myself

A lie, even I could not convince myself was true

I see you and a unique kind of warmth just captures my whole being

I battle with my feelings as I try to keep you from making my blue heart red again

For I am afraid you will hurt me

Afraid my heart will freeze again and the numbness worse than before

I told myself "don't love him for you will only get hurt"

Then i closed my eyes and there you were

Reminding me of all the things I feel

I'm tired of holding back.

My longing for you overcame my fear

Your gentle touch conquered my defenses

And when you held me in your arms and said you loved me

The glacier in my heart began to melt

As the warmth of your love filled my soul.